Sunday, March 18, 2007
Monday, January 22, 2007
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
hair and hearts
I got my hair cut yesterday. Trimmed off all the dead stuff from dyeing fun. Got it cut in an a-line. I ♥ it!
My pink is fading. It's turning back to blonde in spots. I haven't decided what I'm going to do next. For now, I'll keep it strawberries 'n chocolate as it is.
After seeing all the super cute and lovey stuff in the store for Valentine's Day I decided to decorate. I resisted the urge to go all pink out of respect for hubby (and darling son's) manliness. LOL. I ♥ my boys!!!
a sampling....
And that's all for today I swear!
Friday, January 12, 2007
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
the butterfly
Butterfly
Shaped like a butterfly she sits within the neck
Wanting only to share her beauty throughout the body and awakening all cells
Yet faithful to her messenger she will evolve with the information sent
She can race forth spinning your entire being into a frenzy
Awakening you in the midst of the night saturated with sweat and palpitating heart
Or she can lull you to sleep and make you feel so melancholy or down right
Depressed and angry for no particular reason
Whatever the effects her presence will be felt by every part of your being
When feeling fine and neither up nor down do not think that she has forgotten you
For at this time she simply sits on her throne, her wings spread wide,
as she escorts You through your journey
There have been cells that have turned against her, most of them without the strength
To fully conquer her fortress
Other have penetrated her and have caused her great harm
But she continues to evolve with the force of such intrusions while desperately
Attempting to maintain her exalted position
She will fight to save her fortress and keep her chamber safe, but eventually she
Will give in to the information she receives and must subjugate her will to the will Of the informer
Although her wings may be clipped, she is still a beautiful butterfly, she remains
Exalted, meaning only well for the body she inhabits and loyal to her messenger
- - - Anonymous - - -
Monday, January 01, 2007
Thyca lingo
Since not all of you know what the heck I'm talking about sometimes in relation to my cancer, here it is:
Thyca: Thyroid Cancer
Papillary: the type of thyroid cancer I have
TSH (thyroid stimulating hormone): this number is super important to me. I have to be under .5 The higher it goes the worse I feel and the more at risk I am.
Endocrinologist: the doc who takes care of my thyroid.
Radiation Oncologist: the doc who manages my RAI therapy.
Low iodine diet.: I can't have iodine, which is in most food. I can't have dairy, much meat, anything processed or regular salt. That basically leaves fresh fruit and veggies. The reasoning for it is to make cells my hungry for iodine. I will be getting a small dose of radioactive iodine (RAI) next week for a scan to see if I have any thyroid cells left in my body. Thyroid cells will uptake iodine differently than other cells so it helps my doctors to see if I have any thyroid cells left. If I do, then it possible for my cancer to come back or spread.
Going hypo (hypothyroid):means that I'm off my medicine. The drug I take, Synthroid tricks my brain into thinking my thyroid is still there so that it doesn't overproduce TSH (thyroid stimulating hormone) which would not only make me feel really bad, but could stimulate the cancer cells to make trouble. Going hypo is part of getting my body ready to have the whole body scan next week which shows if the cancer is still there.
WBS (Whole Body Scan): The scan of my entire body using a tracer amount of RAI to see if there are any thyroid cells in there.
RAI: radioactive iodine
Isolation: What I will be in if I have to have RAI treatment. The reasoning for this is that I would be radioactive and it would be unsafe for other people to be around me.
Sunday, December 31, 2006
Goodbye 2006
2006 has been a year of ups and downs. Some great highs such as 5 years of marriage, 30 years of me and attending my commencement ceremony to get my AA degree. The best part for me was July 13th when my oncologist told me that my cancer was in remission.
There are some downs to 2006. Our family went through the wringer with my cancer and we are emotionally, physically and financially worn out. 2007 will be a time to heal all that.
My new year's resolution: staying healthy!
I find this song so perfect when thinking of a fresh start.
I'm Movin' On by Rascal Flatts
I’ve dealt with my ghosts and I’ve faced all my demons
Finally content with a past I regret
I’ve found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once I’m at peace with myself
I’ve been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long
I’m movin’ on
I’ve lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different but they’re always the same
They mean me no harm but it’s time that I face it
They’ll never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I don’t belong
I’m movin’ on
Chorus
I’m movin’ on
At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there’s no guarantees, but I’m not alone
There comes a time in everyone’s life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone
I sold what I could and packed what I couldn’t
Stopped to fill up on my way out of town
I’ve loved like I should but lived like I shouldn’t
I had to lose everything to find out
Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road
I’m movin’ on
I’m movin’ on
I’m movin’ on
HAPPY NEW YEAR my friends! I wish you a love and sparkle filled 2007!