That which does not kill us....

As some of you may know, I am struggling with some health issues. Hopefully tomorrow will be my final step of testing and I will know what I am dealing with.

For those of you who don't know...a routine check-up with my gynecologist turned up a problem with my thyroid. After following up with my regular doctor, I have been through several tests. The outcome is that I have nodules on my thyroid. One of these is a cold nodule. This one could be cancerous. Hopefully that possibility will be eliminated after my biopsy of it tomorrow.

Over the past few weeks, as I have dealt with this I have had a lot of time to think. I have realized that I have taken certain things for granted. I have realized how trivial some of the things that I worried about were. I have realized that it is important to find joy in every day and feel thankful for it.

I have also learned that although people may mean well, they rarely know what to say to make someone feel better. But it is sweet that they try. I find that I don't really want to talk about what is going on with my thyroid or the possible outcomes from testing. I want to keep busy, hear a joke, or just sit and talk about daily things. The more I focus on what is wrong with me, the more I feel like withdrawing and having a "pity party".

Hopefully this will all be over soon and I will know what I am dealing with. Thank you to those who have given me their support, known when to forward a silly cartoon or kept me busy. Thank you to those who offered well-meaning words or kind thoughts.