For the worry wart

It's so easy to get wrapped up in worrying about tomorrow. It's easy to lay awake at night worrying about things that you can't control. I know because I do this most nights. I worry so much that I actually have an anxiety disorder. What do I worry about? I worry about getting my homework done, keeping my home clean enough, having enough time to spend with family and friend, and lately whether or not we will be able to move into our new house on time. In my heart I know though that I can only do my best with the things that I can control. The rest will work out as it should.

It's important to remember to savor the present. To take joy in each smile we see on a loved one's face, the laugh of a child, a beautiful sunset, in just being alive. None of us know how many tomorrows we have, so we have to try to live in the joy of today. Now if I could just take my own advice....

"Before, I always lived in anticipation...that it was all a preparation for something else, something “greater,” more “genuine.” But that feeling has dropped away from me completely. I live here and now, this minute, this day, to the full, and the life is worth living."

.....Etty Hillesum