Downsizing my fluff...

Monday I embarked on another weight-loss journey. This time I expect to be succesful. I am doing the Weight Watcher's at home program. I am on Day 5 and it's gotten easier each day. I was super hungry the first two days and I felt kinda mean because of it. But then I learned how to space out my points for the day so it works for me better. I'm rarely hungry until about noon, so I eat a small breakfast (which uses little points) and then eat more points at lunch and dinner. I also find drinking alot of water or Crystal Light helps. I am constantly amazed at all the things I can still eat.

I'm doing more than eating less though. I'm changing the way that I think about things. Losing weight means more to me than fitting into the gorgeous black dress that I bought to wear to my high school reunion. This is about accepting myself. Let's face it, I'm not going to be a size 8...ever. That's just not how I'm built. But I would be super happy with a 12 or a 14. It's funny how much our body image can control our lives. I'm learning to take back that control. I might not be a supermodel, but I'm okay.

I'm reading Wendy Shanker's "Fat Girls' Guide to Life". It's really insightful and funny. It's nice to hear somebody else say the things that the rest of us "fat girls" think but are afraid to say. Reading her book is really boosting my thoughts that I'm just too hard on myself.

Another thing that really helps is working out. I try to work out every day in my garage with the heavy bag. It is nice to go punch and kick that big for 15-20 minutes and get out the day's frustrations.

My sister and I started a belly dancing class a few weeks ago too. It's so much fun that you don't even notice you are excercising for that hour. I love the fact that the emphasis is on your hips, tush and bust. One thing I've learned is that the things I wanted to hide for so long are beautiful when you are belly dancing. My hips might be wide, but they swing beautifully. I might have a lot of junk in my trunk, but I can shake my booty alot better than a skinny girl any day.



There's hope for downsizing my fluff and keeping my sparkle after all!